we made stuff today

i finished my diaper tonight, and while it doesn't look the greatest it will work. it is a rough copy of the tiny tush, same size and everything. i just suck at topstitching so it's all uneven. topstitching is not what makes a good diaper, though, so woohoo for me. now that i have made the pattern i'm going to start cranking those out. i only have green and blue PUL though so i'll get tired of those colors soon. i found that if i cover the outside in a print the fabric wicks. making the diapers this way is super cheap and i can size them specifically.

august made me speechless today. really, the way i felt/feel is beyond words, so i'll just say that i thought my heart was going to explode with pride and happiness. getting him to do anything creative has been like pulling teeth. he doesnt' want to paint, color, draw, build, etc. i always offer and make the big mess and he will play for 2.5 seconds and get bored. i even let him play with that awful color wonder crap that stifles creativity and he still didn't want to. today i told him papa bus' birthday is tomorrow and he was all about painting a card. i have never seen august draw or paint anything specific. he always scribbles. today he was a different boy.

i have some higher quality tempera in rainbow colors, so i put it all on a pallet and gave him several sizes of paintbrushes. he went right to work and painted on a blank card. i could recognize the shapes, and he confirmed what i thought they were: a caterpillar and a sun. wow. i asked him if he wanted some big paper to paint on. yes. first sheet: he began to make a mound of reds, yellows, oranges on the paper that was really vibrant and rich. i commented that he was using good color and it made me happy. he said, "mommy, peach! giant peach!" he was painting a scene from james and the giant peach, a movie he watched last week. he was fascinated by the bugs and peach. i just stood there, holding my breath, and he added the tree the peach was hanging on, and then the blue sky....

i know kids go through phases, but it nearly broke my heart that august wouldn't paint and color with me for these past months. i have no outlet for that (HUGE) part of me other than working with my kids. soon, very soon, i will have a studio and all will be well again...i have big plans for my overhead projector...but the feeling of watching creativity emerge from him all at once was one of the most amazing things i've ever seen. i will hold this jewel of a memory forever. i hope he makes many many more paintings.