woohoo

i have no idea what is wrong with me tonight but i feel....high.
like when i did bad things in college high. i spontaneously took the boys to my parents' house tonight to swim. i didn't want to stay indoors, yet a walk sounded less than fun as it was so hot today. we swam, great fun, then when we were having snacks i fed h, and started to feel weird. like if i close my eyes they might just not open again. i have been sick to my stomach all day but able to eat some. i just feel like my head is not attached to my neck. i drove home like this but it didn't really hit me until i got in bed with h to nurse him to sleep.
he makes the cutest sounds when he is falling asleep nursing. he has to fiddle with my finger and grip it or he can't settle down. jj bought me a sewing machine today. it is awesome. i had a two hour window of sleeping boys to mess around with it! i'm going to water-load and go to bed. maybe that will help.