breastfeeding

it was the world breastfeeding week celebration tonight at the riverfront. i went last year with h in a sling and felt awkward. tonight i was so relaxed and excited to see all those people there for support of women breastfeeding! woohoo! august and hudson had a blast eating suckers, apples and popcorn and i got to oogle chubby babies and pretty slings. i also found out we qualify for WIC due to jeremy's layoff status so i'm totally going to apply for that tomorrow. it's all healthy food that we buy anyway and it includes fresh fruit and veggies, whole wheat bread, non-sugar cereal...
i walked around with h on my back in the Beco and i felt super proud of myself. from the second i had to stop nursing august i was determined to nurse my next baby and since i worked so hard i don't want to stop. why would i stop now? just because hudson is a giant and likes to stand on his head doesn't mean he is done nursing. i think he's had about a cup total of cows milk since he has been born, no formula, and look at him...picture of health. i'm proud of all the nights spent with an aching back trying to keep him asleep in bed next to me...the hours and hours i spent NAK because i wasn't ready to go to sleep yet, eating the weirdest snacks that were all dairy-free...i'm proud of the feeling i got looking at his eyes roll as he fell into a deep sleep nursing tonight after much fighting and struggling against sleep. i'm also proud of august, who doesn't nurse but chooses to snuggle with his head on my chest "my hold you" so he gets his snuggles in, too.
breastfeeding is so much more than feeding a baby and i'm going to keep on keepin on if you know what i mean. hudson loves his Ny Nys!