minimalism

i had an unpleasant encounter this morning that affected my whole day. i have been unable to overcome the detached and cold feeling all day. how awful when i have two babies to interact with. i haven't been mean or negative, just quiet. i just want to hide. it's amazing how one sentence can snap all connections in half. we are raising our boys to express this kind of thing instead of holding it in like i am doing. it will be hard to model for them. honestly the way i've dealt with this every time is to stop eating. i can't be selfish like that anymore. i'm done talking. this is more than i've actually uttered all day.