that gets to me after a long day doing something else...........its the something else. i positively love and adore wearing hudson. it gives me the warm fuzzy feeling if you know what i mean. it sounds so cheesy but i like it. however, if we are out of our comfort zone i feel solely responsible to watch over august, interact with him and others we are around, and attend to hudson. unfortunately it goes in that order and nothing i do seems to change that. ha i forgot myself on that list! no wonder i forgot to go pee today. all of this is causing me stress and i think it is affecting my milk supply. tomorrow i'm going to do nothing except the normal stuff, dishes and diaper laundry, and love my babies.
i realize my faults, one of which is an overwhelming desire to control everything. i get that from my mom. trying to suppress that urge is difficult. lately my life seems to be a delicate balance of several things and i will fight tooth and nail to get that balance back.
and no more 11 hour days at my mom's house without a nap.
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