i am positive

typing it makes it so. i cut up some flannel wipes and talked with jj about why i am doing all of this, to help our family. our boys will have fabric against their skin not plastic. we will have less garbage. i am really trying. the boys mirror my anxiety so i need to keep calm. that convo made me feel better and then we worked together to get the bed out of h's room. it is now his nursery. anna and melissa came over. houston is a beautiful baby. having him and aiden and the company of two people who feel the same crap i do helped me so much. it's funny how just a little bit means so much. i hope we all can spend time together often. i am such a loner but that does me no good. h is falling asleep on my shoulder.